AS@W Antidepressant Skills Workbook: Heling You Deal With Depression
What causes depression?

Each of us is affected differently by outside events, depending on how we think about those events. Imagine two people walking into a party. One person is naturally outgoing, anticipates enjoying herself a great deal, and sees the group of partygoers as friendly and receptive. The other dreads social gatherings, anticipates feeling miserable, and sees the other people as judgmental and rejecting. Each person’s thoughts determine how the event is experienced. Research evidence has shown that depressed individuals often have distorted ways of thinking about the world that can trigger or worsen the experience of depression.

I really blew it. Everyone hates me now. Why did I do that? Idiot. I always ruin everything. I'm such an idiot.